Musings

Several weeks ago, I posted the banner and links for Twilighting in a particular group I once was a member of for a few years.  When it was created back in  2010, one of the admins begged and pleaded with me to join.  She told me that my fic choices and input for this group were invaluable.  We actually live near each other, and we were "good fb friends" at one point.  I was a member of this group on my rl fb account, but I rarely use it any way.

That night, I turned my back on them.  If you're going to treat me like crap, then I'm far better off without your toxic shit in my life.

The banner and the links were deleted.  I checked at least five times to make sure I wasn't wrong.  I almost left the fandom due to this, but thanks to my true friends, I changed my mind.

I will not name the group, but they have a poll that everyone knows if you've been in the fandom for five minutes.  I'm not the first author they have ticked off, and I'm sure I won't be the last.

My point?  Yeah, I may not have a thousand reviews for any of my fics.  I seriously doubt it will ever happen. Apparently, I'm not that popular.  I've racked my brain for months trying to figure out why.  Maybe it's because I love Robsten and thoroughly believe they are together.  Maybe it's because I don't write angst or the slow burn or manhores.  Maybe it's because Mercury is in retrograde.

Who knows, and better yet, who cares?

I write my fantasies.  Excluding the parts about kidnappings, rape scenes, or killings, the things that happen to Bella are the things I want for me.  SC&CS was my ultimate dream.  I want my work to be about me. And when someone is finished reading one of my fics, I want them to say..."THAT was one hell of a ride!"

Love, Ashley XXOO