If you look up the definition of coward in the dictionary, I'm sure her picture is right next to it.
I'm sure you all have read that I seriously considered no longer writing fanfic. Not going to lie to you...the vile, hateful words left behind hurt me, broke me. It has taken me about forty eight hours to get over the sting. I'm sure that if you had received this as a review on not only your best fic, but on your personally, then you would be as upset as I was.
The upside of this was, and is, the amazing out pouring of love I've received since then. Y'all have floored me, made me feel like I really am important, and that my fics matter. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
It's time for me to find a way to write once more. This morning, I told my writing partner that our fics would continue. She's thrilled about that, but I told her to expect for me to have a hard road ahead, Recovering from being bullied is not easy. I'm going to need as much love, support, and motivation as possible. I have to believe that I can do it; that my fics are significant to others.
I have to feel that the Sweet Six deserves to keep on going. A piece of my heart is in each of them. My fans know that I have a love of Law Enforcementward (or some version thereof). The Bella I love to write is girly, strong as opposed to what someone else claimed. I like the combination of those two characters. Most likely, I'll keep coming back to that formula because it makes me happy. Who among us is opposed to a protective, slightly possessive Edward who wants to fall at Bella's feet and love her shamelessly? That is my fantasy, the kind of man I want.
Is it such a crime that I write about that in most of my fics? It's my signature, and while my writing can always improve, the formula is not going to change.
So I'm going to stare at my favorite couple while I try to write another Carolina Heat chapter.
Love, Ashley XXOO
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